Is your life today what you pictured a year ago?
Life is an enigma wrapped in a mystery, itself coiled inside Pandora’s Box.
We have little agency, real agency in our lives.
I mean we all strive for the same things: we mean to survive long enough in order to reproduce and thus attain a infinitesimal chance at immortality.
Be that as it may, delusion or grand design, we may never know, fact remains that outside our immediate mandate (live, reproduce, survive), we have little else to live for.
Sure, we may want to attain a modicum of happiness, and thus we pursue it with the same assiduity that we court our sexual counterparts, our significant others.
But pursuit of happiness remains for most a nominal desiderate. It is an intellectual, academic or constitutional exercise. It is a bonus not a necessity.
Given our lack of agency, power, control over our destiny, which has always been pre-determined in its broadest terms by the will of God or Allah or YHWH, what are we but mere flotsam on the face of God’s blue sea?!
But to answer your question…
Where was I a year ago?
I was enjoying my last three weeks of comfort and ease in the bosom of my family, secure in the knowledge that I was providing my wife and daughter with the best things money can buy, taking care of my old mother on a different continent, in a different time zone, courtesy of the Internet.
I was happy and snug as a bug, chatting my friends up as much as I could, perhaps too much, but hey I’m a talker, right.
Mindlessly spending my time on earth divided between work, family, and my hobbies and TV shows.
I was there.
And then out of the blue, all of a sudden, something happened.
God showed me how little I did know about His Divine Will.
My point is this: live your life to the fullest now and tomorrow. You never know when things will change. Because they do. They always do.
My life today is nowhere near what I pictured it to be a year ago. And it will never go back.
Everything is fixed and you cannot change it.
Götterdämmerung 